notgivnup
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- Nov 8, 2010
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- 11/2010
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What to do when all has an overwhelming effect, physical, emotional, and spiritually? I feel as I should not prolong my waiting around to go, become totally disabled when the only out come is death. Everyday the high light of my day is my cup of coffee in the morning then............bordom til time to sleep.no more interest in anything not that it would matter to anyone anyway. I told my daughter a couple hours ago I was not going to wait around and just sit here waiting to die. I saw her drive off with family and friends to go ATVing for the day....so whats the use, Doesnt seem anyone cares. Im so very tired, I will not fill out one more form for anything I keep getting denied anyway! Bills mounting up, no cash, no ssdi till May or medical....I;m done cant see any reason to prolong this thing...so sorry, maby Im just having a REALLY bad day..time for another valium...or who knows, my strenght is gone, I cant help anyone nor do they want it...I pray the Father will intervene, bring me hope again for what i dont know, I feel useless just sucking air for no apparant reason.....
No need to reply I just needed to express my feeling to cyberspace
No need to reply I just needed to express my feeling to cyberspace