t34gib
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Jan 2, 2009
- Messages
- 234
- Diagnosis
- 12/2008
- Country
- US
- State
- FL
- City
- Fort Pierce
I have these times when just for a moment, I am in full acceptance of my condition and am actually able to tell myself, no problem, I can live with this. Then out of nowhere a mucous plug blocks my breathing tube and I go into a full panic trying to clear it to breathe. Then I am knocked right back to the reality of this disease and where it is going. Everytime it happens I wonder if this is the time that I will not be able to clear it and I will pass out. Of course it gets cleared and here I am again. I think it is so very cruel to have to have this disease in the first place, but to have it and wonder 5 times a day if this is the moment of my death is unbearably cruel. Just wanted to vent and move on.
NancyS
NancyS