pickle
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Hi there
I posted a few times on here a year or so ago when my Dad was first having symptoms. He has now been diagnosed and physically the deterioration seems to be, thankfully, pretty slow. He has lost all use of is right hand and arm and his left is going. He has fasiculations everywhere now and his right leg is going so I'm guessing a wheelchair is not far away as he's not going to be able to use a stick or anything given lack of arms. He has also started slurring his words a bit and sometimes chokes on his food. BUT the big problem we are having which is so heartbreaking is how much he has changed as a person.
It's pretty embarrassing to write down, but he just says and does the most inappropriate things and its so unlike him and very upsetting. We're sort of used to it in a way now but it's got to a point where we have to warn people before they meet him or see him. The worst part is that he is still refusing to stop working (he works like 12/13 hours a day) and he employs my sister to help him get around and type stuff for him etc. but it is so upsetting for her and she gets so scared he is going to say something inappropriate to clients etc.
But the thing that is most difficult is how awful he is to my Mum. They have always had such a wonderful relationship but he just criticizes everything she does now and shouts at her and he just doesn't seem to care. He says things like 'You are so stupid' all the time. My Mum is working so hard to try and make enough money for when she has to stop work to care for him and she is just exhausted and I'm so worried that she is going to have some kind of nervous breakdown. She's like hyper all the time trying to pretend none of it is happening. I have talked to her about it but she refuses to talk to anyone or get any help. She just says that she knows she has to look after him and she will but she doesn't really feel anything for him any more and sort of hates him.
I have asked his doctors about FTD but they keep saying he is fine and to get on with it so I really just don't know what to do. We have always been such a strong and happy family. The kind of family my friends always used to comment on and say they wished they had the same. I honestly thought we could cope with anything life threw at us but now everything is literally falling apart. Everything we had seems to have gone.
I love my family so much and am desperate to do something to make this better but I feel like there's nothing I can do now. Sorry this has gone on so long! I just wondered whether there is anyone out there in a similar situation or anyone who could offer any advice on what we can do.
Much love xx
I posted a few times on here a year or so ago when my Dad was first having symptoms. He has now been diagnosed and physically the deterioration seems to be, thankfully, pretty slow. He has lost all use of is right hand and arm and his left is going. He has fasiculations everywhere now and his right leg is going so I'm guessing a wheelchair is not far away as he's not going to be able to use a stick or anything given lack of arms. He has also started slurring his words a bit and sometimes chokes on his food. BUT the big problem we are having which is so heartbreaking is how much he has changed as a person.
It's pretty embarrassing to write down, but he just says and does the most inappropriate things and its so unlike him and very upsetting. We're sort of used to it in a way now but it's got to a point where we have to warn people before they meet him or see him. The worst part is that he is still refusing to stop working (he works like 12/13 hours a day) and he employs my sister to help him get around and type stuff for him etc. but it is so upsetting for her and she gets so scared he is going to say something inappropriate to clients etc.
But the thing that is most difficult is how awful he is to my Mum. They have always had such a wonderful relationship but he just criticizes everything she does now and shouts at her and he just doesn't seem to care. He says things like 'You are so stupid' all the time. My Mum is working so hard to try and make enough money for when she has to stop work to care for him and she is just exhausted and I'm so worried that she is going to have some kind of nervous breakdown. She's like hyper all the time trying to pretend none of it is happening. I have talked to her about it but she refuses to talk to anyone or get any help. She just says that she knows she has to look after him and she will but she doesn't really feel anything for him any more and sort of hates him.
I have asked his doctors about FTD but they keep saying he is fine and to get on with it so I really just don't know what to do. We have always been such a strong and happy family. The kind of family my friends always used to comment on and say they wished they had the same. I honestly thought we could cope with anything life threw at us but now everything is literally falling apart. Everything we had seems to have gone.
I love my family so much and am desperate to do something to make this better but I feel like there's nothing I can do now. Sorry this has gone on so long! I just wondered whether there is anyone out there in a similar situation or anyone who could offer any advice on what we can do.
Much love xx