Limegirl
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- Nov 19, 2009
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- Reason
- Loved one DX
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- CA
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- bC
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- pitt Meadows
Hi. I have been on the forum for a few months now, but have never posted. My mom was diagnosed officially in Dec with what the doctor's think is advanced ALS (although officially they still call it probable because she does not meet all the criteria yet). She is diagnosed as bulbar onset, (although we can remember weakness in her arms and legs as far back as 4 years ago). She is unable to swallow, but Her speech has been okay, and has only now started to get a bit of a voice change. She appears to be declining quite quickly from what I can tell. She now needs help with all her daily activities, is unable to turn herself in bed, had a PEG tube inserted in November as she was not eating enough for about 2 months and just last week started to complain of thick mucous that she has trouble clearing. It has been a difficult journey thus far for our family, especially my dad. He is her main caregiver as I live 2 hours away. Both of my parents are in their 70's, and he is completely exhausted. I have tried to arrange help for my mom and dad, but it appears they do not qualify for home care without having to pay for it themselves. My mom also feels that my dad is doing a good enough job and that it really is not for anyone else to worry about. They like their privacy and do not want strangers in the house. He collapsed from exhaustion 2 weeks ago. I am now coming over once per week to sleep the night with my mom so that he can sleep the night through.
A big issue that my dad and I are dealing with is my mom's denial. She feels this is a pinched nerve in her neck. We have seen 2 ALS specialists and both agree on the diagnosis. I have a medical background, and from all the test results that I have seen, and that have been explained to me, have to agree with them. As much as I wish this were not happening, I wish to approach this head on and be one step ahead of the disease. My dad and I are frustrated by her denial. We can have no conversations with her as she gets angry with us for "not being positive". Just the mere mention of the words ALS sends my mom on a crying spell that can last quite some time. She gets furious with my father anytime he wants to talk to her about it.
On my last visit, a mucous plug blocked her airway. Only after I stuck my fingers down her throat, was it cleared by her gagging. My dad has had to do this 6 times already. My fear is that a much worse outcome will happen in the future and we do not know any of her wishes as to what care she wishes or does not wish. Her decline seems very rapid to us, and if it continues at this pace, my dad will no longer be able to manage on his own with her. I can see this happening in a couple of months. I am trying to get them to move closer to me. My husband and I are even willing to sell our home and buy one with a basement suite so that I can be a daily caregiver for them. I have 2 young children, one of whom is in school, and as such can not uproot them to move closer to my parents. My mom says she will not move until "she is better". Any suggestions on what I should do? Part of me says if she wishes to cope with denial, then I should just let her as I think that this is the only thing keeping her going at the moment. However, if some things don't get discussed, decisions will end up happening in an emergency situation that will be overwhelming for all involved, especially my dad. Any input would be greatly appreciated.
A big issue that my dad and I are dealing with is my mom's denial. She feels this is a pinched nerve in her neck. We have seen 2 ALS specialists and both agree on the diagnosis. I have a medical background, and from all the test results that I have seen, and that have been explained to me, have to agree with them. As much as I wish this were not happening, I wish to approach this head on and be one step ahead of the disease. My dad and I are frustrated by her denial. We can have no conversations with her as she gets angry with us for "not being positive". Just the mere mention of the words ALS sends my mom on a crying spell that can last quite some time. She gets furious with my father anytime he wants to talk to her about it.
On my last visit, a mucous plug blocked her airway. Only after I stuck my fingers down her throat, was it cleared by her gagging. My dad has had to do this 6 times already. My fear is that a much worse outcome will happen in the future and we do not know any of her wishes as to what care she wishes or does not wish. Her decline seems very rapid to us, and if it continues at this pace, my dad will no longer be able to manage on his own with her. I can see this happening in a couple of months. I am trying to get them to move closer to me. My husband and I are even willing to sell our home and buy one with a basement suite so that I can be a daily caregiver for them. I have 2 young children, one of whom is in school, and as such can not uproot them to move closer to my parents. My mom says she will not move until "she is better". Any suggestions on what I should do? Part of me says if she wishes to cope with denial, then I should just let her as I think that this is the only thing keeping her going at the moment. However, if some things don't get discussed, decisions will end up happening in an emergency situation that will be overwhelming for all involved, especially my dad. Any input would be greatly appreciated.