Web also tells me quite frequently that he can feel the beast moving around inside his body and destroying it. I can not even imagine the horror of that feeling... Stress in and of itself is not a bad thing. The negative aspect is how the individual perceives the stress and how they deal with it [or not]. I am convinced that how we handle STRESS will be found to be a large component of the disease. We already know that PALS are "HERO'S" and that they are "NICE"! MY "NICE HERO" has never really dealt with stress on any level. He is your classic nonconfrontational, make believe it doesn't exist and PUHLEEASE do NOT talk about it EVER! He always assumes that if anything goes wrong, anything-it is because he is at fault or he did something wrong. He is a perfectionist, always was a hard worker and extremely self critical. Never, ever good enough or did enough. :[ It would never occur to him that someone is just a mean and evil butt or that it is out of his control and simply the situation. Yes, stress -good or bad, sends him in a downward spiral. Any stress, physical or emotional or mental but then, it always has. Maybe the ALS is the end result of all of that stuffed stress-the end result of all of those stress hormones that were/are a tsunami crashing over his body over and over? Zaphoon, meditation may very well be part of the solution! Or at the very least having the foresight to marry a woman who totally believes in pixie dust, crowns and that has a troop of smoking, flying monkey's to unleash on the evil ones! For the most part, I guess that I almost enjoy stress-the challenge of it and the way it allows me to take off my ruby red slippers and put on my combat boots! lol soooo many unanswered questions, so many dots to connect...but of this I am convinced, it is NOT about cigarettes but maybe it is about the black fog that puts us in the shadows... Do any of you take xanax when the stress is out of control? If pot were legal in my state I would be feeding it to Web! I have a small amount of Xanax and use it when he is just toooooo stressed and it really helps him go into the ZONE. I might just look into some audio meditation tapes and plug him in!
