Hi Billy,
I know how frustrating it is when you are laying down and cant get air. It is scary.
Although it is different for everyone, it seems like most people that have a dx didn't have rapid onset of symptoms. It seems like my symptoms came on more rapid than those dx with
ALS (very similar to bulbar
ALS) & they are thinking MG. Although it seems doom always looms in the back of everyones mind, mine included, I try to cherish health that I do have for now, even though it is compromised compared to last year, I am grateful to still be able to see, touch, taste, smell and communicate with you, even in pain or slower... at least I am able.
I have heard that some people have been diagnosed with MG and subsequently diagnosed with
ALS....and on the other hand...I have heard that some people have been diagnosed with MG and gone into complete remission. So, since I have no control, I am voting for MG and remission. See what I am saying? People have no control over the outcome, but the journey (that you DO have control over) is what YOU make of it. There is even life after being dx with
ALS as you will see if you read this forum by the amazing people that contribute that do have confirmed
ALS.
So, explore other diseases

. Unfortunately (& fortunately) there are SO MANY other diseases out there and so many symptoms overlap. If I were you, I'd go to an
ALS clinic (again if you already went)...but specifically an
ALS clinic because they really seem to be the most qualified. It is hard to get your mind off your body when it is failing you and fascics/breathing/swallowing are a CONSTANT reminder, but try to be hopeful that maybe it could be something else. Worst case you get dx with
ALS & you stopped to smell the roses in the process ... and perhaps best case may be something lovely like MS, Epstien Bar, Myasthenia Gravis, Lyme Disease, Lambert-Eaton, or a virus in your neurological system. If so, hopefully you will have been touched enough personally that you will get rich and with all that money ... find a cure for this disease.
And stop apologizing for yourself. I think most people can relate to you, so you are in a good place.