Mulino Bianco
Member
- Joined
- Jan 10, 2013
- Messages
- 16
- Country
- IT
- State
- Lombardia
- City
- Parma
Ever since I was a kid life did not give me an easy time.
I was weird looking and curious enough to get kids to pick on me in kindergarden.
Due to frequent fights and pshyical trauma I developed a speech problem that made sure I get molested and bullied in school, in my teenage years I got a beautiful pair of braces for my teeth and acne all over my face to make sure I get all the girls. At age 12 I would spend hours looking at street from balcony and thinking of when I would finally get the strenght to throw myself.
I was an atheist but I started praying and became believer, that got me threw. In high school I had an opportunity to start from a clean start, it did not last for too long though. I was using many chemicals to get rid of those acne and it seems to did harm to my hormones and fertility. It seems that my chance of getting a girl pregnant are very slim along with a terrible libido.
I started going to gym in an attempt to build up but since it did not go too well I started doing steroids which finally gave me results I wanted. I got into shape and I tought my life is going to go well now.
I was wrong, during college I hurt my arms and could not heal fully to start building again. My pain and weakness were so lasting and new injuries so frequent that they tought that it was multiple sclerosis so they did a lumbar puncture.
Due to my steroid usage my capilaries are all unpredictably large so the puncture made a intrathecal bleeding which gave me radiculitis chilld, myoclonus and other nice things. All tests came negative for neurologic disease.
But now I got a nice working diagnosis of arachnoiditis, doctor said it is unlikely to confirm it because only adhesive form can be confirmed radiologicaly and it will take time for this incurable and hard disease to get there. My symptoms were comfined to paraesthesia at distal limbs, burning pain and back sensitivity/stiffness. They got better because I learned how to not provoke them.
Things were relatively stable until a month ago. I noticed cramps in my feet, soon adding metallic taste in my mouth after bumping my head once (that taste went away soon, a month later again present), I also noticed losing my hand power and grip weakness because I would get cramps whild holding some not so heavy things. I also got fasculisations in random places on body: face, legs, arms. My leg reflexes are too strong, and my kinesiotherapist told me I have extensor digitorum atrophy in both forarms and some atrophy in small muscles above the achile´s tendon. My smyptoms are symetrical arms/legs wise and left/right wise.
I am 22 and frail as faaaack, is life really throwing another incurable progressive disease at me?
I am sorry for ranting, I suck.
I was weird looking and curious enough to get kids to pick on me in kindergarden.
Due to frequent fights and pshyical trauma I developed a speech problem that made sure I get molested and bullied in school, in my teenage years I got a beautiful pair of braces for my teeth and acne all over my face to make sure I get all the girls. At age 12 I would spend hours looking at street from balcony and thinking of when I would finally get the strenght to throw myself.
I was an atheist but I started praying and became believer, that got me threw. In high school I had an opportunity to start from a clean start, it did not last for too long though. I was using many chemicals to get rid of those acne and it seems to did harm to my hormones and fertility. It seems that my chance of getting a girl pregnant are very slim along with a terrible libido.
I started going to gym in an attempt to build up but since it did not go too well I started doing steroids which finally gave me results I wanted. I got into shape and I tought my life is going to go well now.
I was wrong, during college I hurt my arms and could not heal fully to start building again. My pain and weakness were so lasting and new injuries so frequent that they tought that it was multiple sclerosis so they did a lumbar puncture.
Due to my steroid usage my capilaries are all unpredictably large so the puncture made a intrathecal bleeding which gave me radiculitis chilld, myoclonus and other nice things. All tests came negative for neurologic disease.
But now I got a nice working diagnosis of arachnoiditis, doctor said it is unlikely to confirm it because only adhesive form can be confirmed radiologicaly and it will take time for this incurable and hard disease to get there. My symptoms were comfined to paraesthesia at distal limbs, burning pain and back sensitivity/stiffness. They got better because I learned how to not provoke them.
Things were relatively stable until a month ago. I noticed cramps in my feet, soon adding metallic taste in my mouth after bumping my head once (that taste went away soon, a month later again present), I also noticed losing my hand power and grip weakness because I would get cramps whild holding some not so heavy things. I also got fasculisations in random places on body: face, legs, arms. My leg reflexes are too strong, and my kinesiotherapist told me I have extensor digitorum atrophy in both forarms and some atrophy in small muscles above the achile´s tendon. My smyptoms are symetrical arms/legs wise and left/right wise.
I am 22 and frail as faaaack, is life really throwing another incurable progressive disease at me?
I am sorry for ranting, I suck.