JennyC
Distinguished member
- Joined
- May 3, 2016
- Messages
- 232
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 04/2016
- Country
- US
- State
- NY
- City
- Queensbury
I am getting so angry and resentful. I am mad that I do work while my brother gets to have nice visits with my mom. Mom won't let my brother or uncle help her with dressing, bathing or toileting....okay I get that but she won't let my aunt who lives 2 minutes away help her either, she will only let my other aunt that she lives with help but she is on the road for work 4 days out of the week.
I drive 45 miles each way to spend at least two days with my mom so my uncle can have a break, i help her bathe, toilet, ambulate when needed, dress, take her to appointments and cook dinner. I witness the struggles she has, the frustration, the crying and screaming jags, the falling...I get snapped at constantly. But my brother...the prince of the friggin family who lives 5 minutes from her gets to stop by now and then and have nice little visits that consist of them sitting in the living room or watching TV. If my aunt happens to be home he even gets to have a meal that he didn't have to make and RELAX. When I text him about mom or like tonight he stopped by to see her and I am home so I text him to ask how she was tonight he doesn't text me back, claims he doesn't have time to text.
I end up in sent to the ER from my doctors office because my resting pulse was 147 and they can't get a blood pressure in my left arm...why? Because I'm freaking exhausted!! He knows I ended up in the ER and he hasn't even bothered to ask me how I am, that was days ago. He could be at my moms house when my aunt goes, helping her to get things cleared out but no one asks him to do a damned thing and my mother wouldn't think of it after all he has a full time job.
Well guess what, I don't have a full time job, why? Because my doctor pulled me out of it and I am freaking disabled.
On top of it I am now not allowed to talk to anyone apparently. My gram had me take her to the furniture store so she could buy my mom another power lift recliner so that my mom could have one for the living room and one for the bedroom when she wanted alone time. Well I told my Gram that they had decided it was too big and didn't leave mom enough room to move around so they were going to swap the chairs because the living room one is smaller...Well apparently my mom and aunt are upset with me for telling her that I was told not to say anything to anyone about anything that happens in the house.
I am honestly thinking of just having nothing to do with my brother anymore, he is 27, has no kids, no pets, just him and his fiance (who is wearing a diamond ring that I gave to him so he could propose while my mom was still alive) and they both work. She has 3 days off a week and he has two, they live 5 minutes from my mom and they aren't doing anything to help other than when he helped move furniture but that was only because some of the furniture was going to his house.
I don't know what to do, I am getting to the point I'm ready to start fights with random strangers. I do see a therapist and yes I am on meds and they have been adjusted....
Pretty sure my mom is not talking to me, she isn't responding to anything. I know she is mad because my daughter asked if my mom was going to die from this and I told her yes. My mom didn't want her to know from the get go but I told her that if my daughter outright asked I would not lie to her....oh well, that will make going down this week interesting....
Sorry for going off but I really needed it
I drive 45 miles each way to spend at least two days with my mom so my uncle can have a break, i help her bathe, toilet, ambulate when needed, dress, take her to appointments and cook dinner. I witness the struggles she has, the frustration, the crying and screaming jags, the falling...I get snapped at constantly. But my brother...the prince of the friggin family who lives 5 minutes from her gets to stop by now and then and have nice little visits that consist of them sitting in the living room or watching TV. If my aunt happens to be home he even gets to have a meal that he didn't have to make and RELAX. When I text him about mom or like tonight he stopped by to see her and I am home so I text him to ask how she was tonight he doesn't text me back, claims he doesn't have time to text.
I end up in sent to the ER from my doctors office because my resting pulse was 147 and they can't get a blood pressure in my left arm...why? Because I'm freaking exhausted!! He knows I ended up in the ER and he hasn't even bothered to ask me how I am, that was days ago. He could be at my moms house when my aunt goes, helping her to get things cleared out but no one asks him to do a damned thing and my mother wouldn't think of it after all he has a full time job.
Well guess what, I don't have a full time job, why? Because my doctor pulled me out of it and I am freaking disabled.
On top of it I am now not allowed to talk to anyone apparently. My gram had me take her to the furniture store so she could buy my mom another power lift recliner so that my mom could have one for the living room and one for the bedroom when she wanted alone time. Well I told my Gram that they had decided it was too big and didn't leave mom enough room to move around so they were going to swap the chairs because the living room one is smaller...Well apparently my mom and aunt are upset with me for telling her that I was told not to say anything to anyone about anything that happens in the house.
I am honestly thinking of just having nothing to do with my brother anymore, he is 27, has no kids, no pets, just him and his fiance (who is wearing a diamond ring that I gave to him so he could propose while my mom was still alive) and they both work. She has 3 days off a week and he has two, they live 5 minutes from my mom and they aren't doing anything to help other than when he helped move furniture but that was only because some of the furniture was going to his house.
I don't know what to do, I am getting to the point I'm ready to start fights with random strangers. I do see a therapist and yes I am on meds and they have been adjusted....
Pretty sure my mom is not talking to me, she isn't responding to anything. I know she is mad because my daughter asked if my mom was going to die from this and I told her yes. My mom didn't want her to know from the get go but I told her that if my daughter outright asked I would not lie to her....oh well, that will make going down this week interesting....
Sorry for going off but I really needed it