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I tried starting a new thread but could not find the new thread key anywhere. It might be due to lack of sleep or its not letting me start one. I need to reach out for support and rant a little.
I last night from work and went back to see my mother. I noticed that she was talking funny and slurred. She also had drool coming out of her mouth and has been chocking on her food. I feared a stroke so call the ambulance. fast forward six hours later. The docs came into the emergency room and said the Cat Scan showed several masses and breeding in her brain and they were transporting her to another hospital downtown to Neuro ICU. Fast forward to this afternoon with no sleep. All test back and she has lung and brain cancer, plus aspiration pneumonia. Stage 4 cancer that is with no surgery options. She is in the final stages and the only option is radiation that may or may not extend it for a couple of months. I had to have power of attorney assigned and am making her medical decisions so we will be in hospice. I also have to coordinate it all and find a way to get back to work quickly.
Really??? I am at my breaking point. Brand new job and I am missing work plus this is such a shock. We did not see any signs until a few days ago. I am not sure how I can be so many places at once and maintain my strength. I am the only family close by so cant leave her alone here, as she has mental issues and is not understood by anyone but me the last two days. The doctors won't tell her anything so I have to relay it all.
To top it off my husband is no support at all. I think I deserve better after all I have doe everything in my power to support him. All he said when I called him is " Why do you need to stay at the hospital she is dying and there is nothing you can do. Is brother is there so this has nothing to do with me coming home to take care of him. He doesn't care if I am there anymore. All I wanted when calling him was " I am so sorry babe, we can get through this and I love you.
I am so angry, shocked, sad, exhausted and tired at all of it. Hope of making it to the other side of all of this, is diminishing by the moment.
Sorry everyone, we all have so much to deal with. I just had to get this all off my shoulders.
I last night from work and went back to see my mother. I noticed that she was talking funny and slurred. She also had drool coming out of her mouth and has been chocking on her food. I feared a stroke so call the ambulance. fast forward six hours later. The docs came into the emergency room and said the Cat Scan showed several masses and breeding in her brain and they were transporting her to another hospital downtown to Neuro ICU. Fast forward to this afternoon with no sleep. All test back and she has lung and brain cancer, plus aspiration pneumonia. Stage 4 cancer that is with no surgery options. She is in the final stages and the only option is radiation that may or may not extend it for a couple of months. I had to have power of attorney assigned and am making her medical decisions so we will be in hospice. I also have to coordinate it all and find a way to get back to work quickly.
Really??? I am at my breaking point. Brand new job and I am missing work plus this is such a shock. We did not see any signs until a few days ago. I am not sure how I can be so many places at once and maintain my strength. I am the only family close by so cant leave her alone here, as she has mental issues and is not understood by anyone but me the last two days. The doctors won't tell her anything so I have to relay it all.
To top it off my husband is no support at all. I think I deserve better after all I have doe everything in my power to support him. All he said when I called him is " Why do you need to stay at the hospital she is dying and there is nothing you can do. Is brother is there so this has nothing to do with me coming home to take care of him. He doesn't care if I am there anymore. All I wanted when calling him was " I am so sorry babe, we can get through this and I love you.
I am so angry, shocked, sad, exhausted and tired at all of it. Hope of making it to the other side of all of this, is diminishing by the moment.
Sorry everyone, we all have so much to deal with. I just had to get this all off my shoulders.