NeedCourage
Active member
- Joined
- Feb 22, 2014
- Messages
- 73
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 12/2013
- Country
- US
- State
- PA
- City
- SW
Hi guys,
I am an infrequent poster but avid reader. Expression does not come easily as I've always been very private.
I finally decided I'd better express some junk that's in my head and heart or I'll implode, explode or melt into a witch's pile of goo, as in Oz.
After reading all the beautiful and exceptionally loving Cals stories here just now - I can't.
I'm ready to quit my job as a full-time 24/7 Cals. I can't do this. My body is as broken as my spirit, and "NO" I don't have outside help yet. Been trying for many many months. Still working with State agency on aging.... It takes forever and I've run out of steam.
I guess that's all I can say. Lost my nerve.
I do love your stories of joy - my feelings have nothing to do with yours....
Keep on finding happiness if you can.
I admire you all so much. I'll probably feel very guilty for even doing this... lol.
Nancy
I am an infrequent poster but avid reader. Expression does not come easily as I've always been very private.
I finally decided I'd better express some junk that's in my head and heart or I'll implode, explode or melt into a witch's pile of goo, as in Oz.
After reading all the beautiful and exceptionally loving Cals stories here just now - I can't.
I'm ready to quit my job as a full-time 24/7 Cals. I can't do this. My body is as broken as my spirit, and "NO" I don't have outside help yet. Been trying for many many months. Still working with State agency on aging.... It takes forever and I've run out of steam.
I guess that's all I can say. Lost my nerve.
I do love your stories of joy - my feelings have nothing to do with yours....
Keep on finding happiness if you can.
I admire you all so much. I'll probably feel very guilty for even doing this... lol.
Nancy