Loverly
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Oct 28, 2014
- Messages
- 197
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Country
- US
- State
- CA
- City
- Orange County
I have had a diagnosis of depression for about 10 years. Most of the time, medication helps, but sometimes it can overwhelm me. I am experiencing one of those times and it's making me feel horrible. I am becoming debilitated myself.
Last night I could feel the irritation building up while I was helping K in the bathroom because she takes so long to get in and out of there. It's irrational, I know, but it's getting worse. I just feel so guilty and sad that I could feel so upset about something over which none of us has any control.
Sometimes i feel I could actually kill the dog for barking too much.
i'm in my bedroom now, because the aide is here, and i'm just crying and crying.
I don't want to go to a psychiatrist. I feel that there is a risk that it could become worse by tinkering around with medications.
I also feel horrible. I can't believe how hard it is to move a tiny lady like my PAL. Every time I get over one pain in my back or shoulders another area flares up. I'm tired and frustrated and I feel like a real heel.
I know none of you can change any of this, but i fear keep it to myself will be worse. Kind of like an accountability you know?
Jen
Last night I could feel the irritation building up while I was helping K in the bathroom because she takes so long to get in and out of there. It's irrational, I know, but it's getting worse. I just feel so guilty and sad that I could feel so upset about something over which none of us has any control.
Sometimes i feel I could actually kill the dog for barking too much.
i'm in my bedroom now, because the aide is here, and i'm just crying and crying.
I don't want to go to a psychiatrist. I feel that there is a risk that it could become worse by tinkering around with medications.
I also feel horrible. I can't believe how hard it is to move a tiny lady like my PAL. Every time I get over one pain in my back or shoulders another area flares up. I'm tired and frustrated and I feel like a real heel.
I know none of you can change any of this, but i fear keep it to myself will be worse. Kind of like an accountability you know?
Jen