smoochiegal
Active member
- Joined
- Jan 3, 2015
- Messages
- 87
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 08/2014
- Country
- CA
- State
- Ontario
- City
- Otonabee
My friends,
Not sure if we are on the up swing or the down swing of this rollercoaster... We spent the last 3 days crying and him begging me to give him all of the meds we have in the house.
He is done. But apparently his body is not.
I am so emotionally exhausted.
I am so angry that God would allow him to have to do this.. I keep begging God to take him, because I could not live with myself if I had to do it.
I am tired or people starting sentences to me with 'you should..'
I am tired of crying all the time.
I am tired of people saying call me if you need anything.. when if they came here, they would see what needs to be done.
I am tired of feeling like I am failing at everything.
I need something, but I have no idea what. Sleep does not seem to rest me. I can't even think of eating. (I am also tired of people telling me 'wow, you have lost a lot of weight, you look great.'.... are you kidding me?)
So there it is.. my early Sunday morning rant and vent while I wish that I was still sleeping but that damn misquito kept landing on my forehead and I just could not find him!
Love to you all and I hope you have a sunny, happy Sunday. I will go back to bed soon and pray that I wake up in a better mood.
OXOX for listening.
Cheryl
Not sure if we are on the up swing or the down swing of this rollercoaster... We spent the last 3 days crying and him begging me to give him all of the meds we have in the house.
He is done. But apparently his body is not.
I am so emotionally exhausted.
I am so angry that God would allow him to have to do this.. I keep begging God to take him, because I could not live with myself if I had to do it.
I am tired or people starting sentences to me with 'you should..'
I am tired of crying all the time.
I am tired of people saying call me if you need anything.. when if they came here, they would see what needs to be done.
I am tired of feeling like I am failing at everything.
I need something, but I have no idea what. Sleep does not seem to rest me. I can't even think of eating. (I am also tired of people telling me 'wow, you have lost a lot of weight, you look great.'.... are you kidding me?)
So there it is.. my early Sunday morning rant and vent while I wish that I was still sleeping but that damn misquito kept landing on my forehead and I just could not find him!
Love to you all and I hope you have a sunny, happy Sunday. I will go back to bed soon and pray that I wake up in a better mood.
OXOX for listening.
Cheryl