smoochiegal
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- Joined
- Jan 3, 2015
- Messages
- 87
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 08/2014
- Country
- CA
- State
- Ontario
- City
- Otonabee
Hello, my friends.
I would love insight, opinions and suggestions.
Last June, before my husband was diagnosed with ALS, my parents decided they wanted to take the the whole family on a cruise. 22 people in all, kids, grandkids and all. My husband was not planning on going with us as he didn't have enough holidays to do his fishing tournaments as we as the cruise and fishing was his life!
Fast forward a few months and we have ALS. We have tried to convince him to come, but he will have none of it!
SO.. I have 2 boys (15 and 12) who are so excited about their first cruise with all of their aunts, uncles and cousins.
Now, I have 8 weeks to decide if I am going to go on the cruise. My husband is still able to walk (both his arms are affected and his breathing and swallowing are starting to be affected now). His brother has said he will move in while we are gone, I can get workers in to help with the showering and dressing.
BUT my guilt is leaving him. If anything happened to him while I was on the cruise, I don't think I would ever be able to forgive myself. Hubby says go, others have of course given their opinion of 'why would you even think of going?'
When I think of my boys, I 100% want to go with them as I think they need to the break with their momma.
When I think of my husband I 100% do not want to go.
I wish I could clone my self and be in both places.
I have asked my ex husband (the boys dad) if he would take my place if that needs to happen, as I do not want my boys to miss out....
I am just so torn.
Thanks guys for the listening ear and the experienced ideas and opinions.
Cheryl
I would love insight, opinions and suggestions.
Last June, before my husband was diagnosed with ALS, my parents decided they wanted to take the the whole family on a cruise. 22 people in all, kids, grandkids and all. My husband was not planning on going with us as he didn't have enough holidays to do his fishing tournaments as we as the cruise and fishing was his life!
Fast forward a few months and we have ALS. We have tried to convince him to come, but he will have none of it!
SO.. I have 2 boys (15 and 12) who are so excited about their first cruise with all of their aunts, uncles and cousins.
Now, I have 8 weeks to decide if I am going to go on the cruise. My husband is still able to walk (both his arms are affected and his breathing and swallowing are starting to be affected now). His brother has said he will move in while we are gone, I can get workers in to help with the showering and dressing.
BUT my guilt is leaving him. If anything happened to him while I was on the cruise, I don't think I would ever be able to forgive myself. Hubby says go, others have of course given their opinion of 'why would you even think of going?'
When I think of my boys, I 100% want to go with them as I think they need to the break with their momma.
When I think of my husband I 100% do not want to go.
I wish I could clone my self and be in both places.
I have asked my ex husband (the boys dad) if he would take my place if that needs to happen, as I do not want my boys to miss out....
I am just so torn.
Thanks guys for the listening ear and the experienced ideas and opinions.
Cheryl