sallyb
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Hi folks, long time no posting.. My mom continues to steadily decline with my dad as her full time carer. She does not want to meet anyone, leave the house & essentially is now only allowing my dad to do certain tasks with her (eg shower/walk to bathroom) because she is "so bad" none of us could do it safely or properly or whatever. He seems to be doing ok (though I wonder would he tell me if he wasnt), & gets out for maybe an hour at a time here & there, keeps telling me that he will tell me when it is too much for him & that I can't do anything more. I just find the whole situation incredibly depressing and stressful. I worry about my dad & I feel sad that his life has been put on pause. I am so angry at this crappy disease, the fact that there is nothing that can be done, the fact that both my parents lives are ruined. She seems like she has just given up. I often wish it was over which I know is a horrible thing to say. I know I will look back in six months time & think "wow wasn't it great then when she could swallow some food or transfer with help etc etc" but I don't feel at all grateful. It's her birthday this week & I am dreading it. Last year lots of tears (her though the rest of us felt equally rubbish) this year I am like what the hell are we celebrating exactly? Another year of this ****?
Don't feel like my ability to deal with this is improving at all. Do you ever get any closer to acceptance? Any words of wisdom appreciated, even the pull yourself together type.
Don't feel like my ability to deal with this is improving at all. Do you ever get any closer to acceptance? Any words of wisdom appreciated, even the pull yourself together type.