HisWifeKate
Member
- Joined
- Jun 24, 2013
- Messages
- 17
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 11/2011
- Country
- US
- State
- Mi
- City
- Brighton
Hi, this is my first time to this site.. Though I'm not new to this disease. My husband was diagnosed in Nov2011 at 31yr old. We've been battling this for almost 2 years now.
I guess I just wanted to say hi and introduce myself. I'm Kate..I'm 27... I feel like I'm losing my mind and need an outlet for the feelings I've been struggling with.
This disease is such a nightmare. I still sometimes feel like this cant be real..My heart breaks so much for my husband Tony and his daily, hourly struggles. I'm losing my best friend and I can't help but feel totally abandoned by God. I'm angry.. I'm afraid... i don't want to live without him. I love him more than anything. I'm grieving so intensely... (Privately, I don't want him to see me crying all the time on top of what he has to endure.) I feel like I'm being robbed of all our hopes and dreams. Will our 8 week old baby get a chance to know her father? How many more kisses will I get? How many hugs..smiles..
I need a way to numb this pain.. I try to stay positive but today I feel like kicking and screaming and beating the doors of heaven to plead my case...
Anyone else feel like their voice isn't being heard?
I guess I just wanted to say hi and introduce myself. I'm Kate..I'm 27... I feel like I'm losing my mind and need an outlet for the feelings I've been struggling with.
This disease is such a nightmare. I still sometimes feel like this cant be real..My heart breaks so much for my husband Tony and his daily, hourly struggles. I'm losing my best friend and I can't help but feel totally abandoned by God. I'm angry.. I'm afraid... i don't want to live without him. I love him more than anything. I'm grieving so intensely... (Privately, I don't want him to see me crying all the time on top of what he has to endure.) I feel like I'm being robbed of all our hopes and dreams. Will our 8 week old baby get a chance to know her father? How many more kisses will I get? How many hugs..smiles..
I need a way to numb this pain.. I try to stay positive but today I feel like kicking and screaming and beating the doors of heaven to plead my case...
Anyone else feel like their voice isn't being heard?