For no reason at all....

[cubcake]

and for many insignificant reasons, I can't shake the feeling that we are nearing the end. I don't know if its all the little, overwhelming changes, my fear, my fatigue, all of the painful losses on this forum in the last few months.....I don't know.

I'm just so.................sad.

 

[vickim]

Praying for you and your husband. Sending (((hugs))).

 

[ottawa girl]

Oh Shelly,

I'm sad that you are sad. You're right, it may be due to everything you mentioned. Especially the overwhelming number of losses in such a short time. That surely does compound our respective worries. Snaps me out of my denial at times. It is so harsh, this nasty thing we share. I am quite certain that it's harder on the careers in so many ways.

When I feel sad, my husband says " hang on tight". That really helps. Maybe if you can snuggle up, and hang on tightly, you will strengthen one another.

I hope you can get a good night's sleep. You are probably also sleep deprived.

 

[WellsRuby]

Sending prayers and try and get a good night sleep.

 

[Barbie]

Oh man...I hope you are wrong! I know that in the past I have had that feeling too--and thank goodness I waswrong. sometimes it just gets too overwhelming, doesn't it?

 

[panguinjen]

Shelly, I'm so sorry! I think the same as you, Rog isn't doing well either... Hugs being sent your way!

Jen

 

[momap53]

So sorry to hear this,,Shelly. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers

 

[cubcake]

Thanks, so much, everyone. Your prayers and well wishes mean so much to me. I guess I'm just hoping that by putting it out there, it just won't come true. Sort of the reverse of jinxing myself. Silly, I know. I just can't shake the feeling.

Thank you for being here with me. It's a scary, painful time.

Barbie - Thank you for your words. I was very much hoping that someone else had these feelings and they proved to be wrong. That helps so much!

Jen - I'm very sorry to hear about Rog. Please PM me if you'd like to talk. I know how much you love him and how devoted you are to his care.

 

[Danijela]

I was there too- twice. A year ago and about 3 months ago. Luckily, I was wrong both times...hope it passes for you. D

 

[cervus]

Thinking of you, Shelly. And everybody else here. Yasmin.

 

[Katie C]

Shelly, can you put in a call to Dr North? I found he was very good at calming those scary feelings, while being very up front at the same time. Hang in there.

 

[cubcake]

Hi Katie.....thanks for that suggestion. I will contact him. I don't recall if Glen ever went on Hospice. Since Dr. North signed us up, he doesn't see us anymore. Not a trade off I had anticipated, but of course, it makes sense. I do miss his support.

Hospice has ordered help with bathing for my husband. I appreciate the help but I hate that I can't do this alone.

 

[vzandt]

Shelly, I hope your feeling better now.