CoachMeg
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Mar 4, 2011
- Messages
- 209
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 02/2011
- Country
- US
- State
- CA
- City
- Roseville
That is it. I am so scared. Not just about losing my husband, but the whole process is starting to scare me. Everyone tells me how strong I am and what a great job I am doing. But, ya know what? I really don't feel like it. I can't do anything to make him better.
He fell last night. Hard on his knees on the tile bathroom floor. I couldn't get him up. He is too weak to help much so I had to call a neighbor for help. Neighbor is a godsend on many levels. But dang it all to heck. He is getting weaker, and shorter of breath, and his appetite is not what it used to be. Last night, he actually mentioned maybe it was time for a hospital bed.
I hate this disease. It is now causing him pain. I don't know what to do. He says his muscles hurt. Last night, he said it was like someone was putting a hot poker through his knee. What is up with that? I was deluded to think there would be minimal physical pain, but after the last few nights, I am even more scared for him.
I hate this disease and what it is taking away from my husband. And from my kids.....
Today I struggle to be positive and to have faith.
Meg
He fell last night. Hard on his knees on the tile bathroom floor. I couldn't get him up. He is too weak to help much so I had to call a neighbor for help. Neighbor is a godsend on many levels. But dang it all to heck. He is getting weaker, and shorter of breath, and his appetite is not what it used to be. Last night, he actually mentioned maybe it was time for a hospital bed.
I hate this disease. It is now causing him pain. I don't know what to do. He says his muscles hurt. Last night, he said it was like someone was putting a hot poker through his knee. What is up with that? I was deluded to think there would be minimal physical pain, but after the last few nights, I am even more scared for him.
I hate this disease and what it is taking away from my husband. And from my kids.....
Today I struggle to be positive and to have faith.
Meg