jwife
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Jul 10, 2010
- Messages
- 163
- Diagnosis
- 05/2009
- Country
- US
- State
- Alabama
- City
- Lincoln
Today was my first Christmas in 43 years without my loving husband. He lost his battle with ALS in August. I have to say this has been one of the hardest days of my life. I do not believe that I have ever felt so alone. I couldn't face the large family gathering so I had a quiet lunch with my son, daughter-in-law and 2 granddaughters. Even that couldn't keep the tears away. Spent time in the rain in the cemetery but could find no peace there either. I can only imagine how others must feel. Death comes to all of us, but ALS is such a monster. I will be glad for tomorrow to come. Maybe there will not be so many tears. I would give anything to have him still here. And I would try so hard to be a better caregiver, because I now know that it isn't the physical support that one needs as much as it is the emotional support. He was my stabilizer.
My sincere sympathy to those you have walked in or are walking in my shoes.
God Bless!
Janis
My sincere sympathy to those you have walked in or are walking in my shoes.
God Bless!
Janis