adkdreams
Active member
- Joined
- Jan 8, 2010
- Messages
- 72
- Reason
- CALS
- Diagnosis
- 08/2007
- Country
- US
- State
- New York
- City
- Bloomingdale
Ok so the first time in a long time without feeling guilty I was at lunch and headed to a football game with a friend. Don was going to met us at the game with his brother who was at our visiting. (not to mention this adds a whole new level of stress) So i was waiting for our food when I get a call from our son saying dad fell, bite his lip and is all red.
So having no car with me ask my friend to get me home ASAP as I know this type of chain of events which sends him into a panic attack, throwing up, continual biting of his tongue or lip, and respiratory distress. So we get in the car and are rushing home 10 minutes minium on a good day.
So on our way home of course you get behind slow people who refuse to move even with blinkers and horns going. IGNORANT. So I am calling back home to have my daughter get his bi-pap, suction, and cough assist put back together so I can have it ready when I get there. (needless to say she is only and and does a great job at this) The equipment was not set up as it was "cleaning" day. I am talking to my son during this and he is telling me dad is all red and can't breathe and they are trying to get him upstairs, now mind you he is 2 levels down fell,refluxed and is now in respiratory distress. When I get home everyone is in our room with him my brother in-law, sister in-law, two nieces and my two kids. I walk in and he is red, blue, gagging, eyes rolling sweating, I guess you can say I paniced (didn't feel paniced) and just hooked up the peg tube and gave 1.0 mg of morphine, after a like 2 minutes I realized I did it wrong it was only suppose to be .25mg. I lost it called a great friend who is a nuero PA and explained what I did and said get him to the hospital so they can reverse it it my labor his breathing too much. Great so off we go get there and have to tell them what happened, it is the worse feeling ever that I can't let go of.
I screwed up big time, now he is in the hospital, it is a small town so many people already know what has happened, my brother in-law who really doesn't get everything told my in-laws what has happened and I am currently not on good terms with them, my kids know I screwed up and the list goes on.
How can I handle a more emergent situation if I can't even give him the right meds when he needs it. This is nothing compared to what can happen down the road and now after being told what a great job I have been doing with everything I feel so incompenent and like a failure.
Any ideas how to get over this, I believe this is my breaking point and I am scared @#*%less.
Jodi
So having no car with me ask my friend to get me home ASAP as I know this type of chain of events which sends him into a panic attack, throwing up, continual biting of his tongue or lip, and respiratory distress. So we get in the car and are rushing home 10 minutes minium on a good day.
So on our way home of course you get behind slow people who refuse to move even with blinkers and horns going. IGNORANT. So I am calling back home to have my daughter get his bi-pap, suction, and cough assist put back together so I can have it ready when I get there. (needless to say she is only and and does a great job at this) The equipment was not set up as it was "cleaning" day. I am talking to my son during this and he is telling me dad is all red and can't breathe and they are trying to get him upstairs, now mind you he is 2 levels down fell,refluxed and is now in respiratory distress. When I get home everyone is in our room with him my brother in-law, sister in-law, two nieces and my two kids. I walk in and he is red, blue, gagging, eyes rolling sweating, I guess you can say I paniced (didn't feel paniced) and just hooked up the peg tube and gave 1.0 mg of morphine, after a like 2 minutes I realized I did it wrong it was only suppose to be .25mg. I lost it called a great friend who is a nuero PA and explained what I did and said get him to the hospital so they can reverse it it my labor his breathing too much. Great so off we go get there and have to tell them what happened, it is the worse feeling ever that I can't let go of.
I screwed up big time, now he is in the hospital, it is a small town so many people already know what has happened, my brother in-law who really doesn't get everything told my in-laws what has happened and I am currently not on good terms with them, my kids know I screwed up and the list goes on.
How can I handle a more emergent situation if I can't even give him the right meds when he needs it. This is nothing compared to what can happen down the road and now after being told what a great job I have been doing with everything I feel so incompenent and like a failure.
Any ideas how to get over this, I believe this is my breaking point and I am scared @#*%less.
Jodi