MACDONR
New member
- Joined
- Apr 27, 2010
- Messages
- 8
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 04/2009
- Country
- CA
- State
- Ontario
- City
- Hamilton
since my mom or "mummsy" as we called her, passed away. There are days that I think about her I feel like I'm going crazy. I miss her so much that on other days I won't even let myself think about her. When something happens with my kids ie. good report card, something funny they say, I still think in my head "I have to call mummsy and tell her". My family is going on vacation this Saturday and the other day I was thinking "oh my gosh, I didn't tell mom we're going". I dream about her and every time I'm so happy to see her happy and healthy again. But then in my head I'm worried that she'll notice that we've sold her house and all her furniture is gone. There are days that I still cannot fathom that she is gone, never mind losing her to ALS. I'm so pissed off at this disease and how cruel it is. We only had 8 months with her from time of diagnosis to time of passing. From the day afer she was diagnosed, I saw her decline every time I saw her. She knew what ALS was going to take from her. My mom went through so much adversity in her life I always thought that her senior years would bring her peace and happiness, but no such luck. Sorry for ranting and crying - I know she is at peace now but it doesn't stop me from wanting her back here with me.