melalthia
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Hello everyone
I posted this in the "Is this ALS?" forum.. and this morning when i woke I realized that was not the best place for it.
First of all, hello! My name is mel and I just took my mom for her EMG test on wednesday.
Though the blood work and MRI came back ok.. and the EMG said her neurons are all acting under normal parameters.. the specialist still thinks its MND. More specifically she thinks either:
-ALS
-PBP
-Corticobasal ganglionic degeneration
-Progressive supranuclear degeneration
They want my mom to come back for more testing as they can't give a concrete diagnosis and are willing to put her up in a hotel for a week if she contributes to their research which would also include genetic testing, etc. My mom is in shock and understandably hostile. She doesn't want to do the week and when the doctor gently suggested a feeding tube my mom really lost it. A week has gone by and she doesn't really want to do it. She would rather just get "pneumonia and die quickly".
So my question to those of you who are in the know... what's a daughter to do? My inclination is to somehow strong arm her into everything because the sooner she has a real diagnosis the sooner she make plans. But is that just selfish on my part? I want her to go to Europe.. i want her to come live with me... i'm wracking my brain to figure out what i need to know to be a caretaker.. i want to be there for her. I figure her getting a true diagnosis is the only way to be sure about all this. But I am also aware that it's HER LIFE. Not mine. She is not me. If it were me, i'd fight tooth and nail to live every last moment I could before my body gave out. But she is choosing a different way.. and i'm struggling to accept it because i love her so much. She lives alone, and has no friends. She has me, my sister and her brother.. and we all live over 2 hours away. How can we just accept her wishes and just "leave it alone?" She's all alone.
So i guess my real question is.. how can i be there for her and be strong enough to accept what ever decisions she makes in how to deal with this?
sorry that was so long winded..
-m
I posted this in the "Is this ALS?" forum.. and this morning when i woke I realized that was not the best place for it.
First of all, hello! My name is mel and I just took my mom for her EMG test on wednesday.
Though the blood work and MRI came back ok.. and the EMG said her neurons are all acting under normal parameters.. the specialist still thinks its MND. More specifically she thinks either:
-ALS
-PBP
-Corticobasal ganglionic degeneration
-Progressive supranuclear degeneration
They want my mom to come back for more testing as they can't give a concrete diagnosis and are willing to put her up in a hotel for a week if she contributes to their research which would also include genetic testing, etc. My mom is in shock and understandably hostile. She doesn't want to do the week and when the doctor gently suggested a feeding tube my mom really lost it. A week has gone by and she doesn't really want to do it. She would rather just get "pneumonia and die quickly".
So my question to those of you who are in the know... what's a daughter to do? My inclination is to somehow strong arm her into everything because the sooner she has a real diagnosis the sooner she make plans. But is that just selfish on my part? I want her to go to Europe.. i want her to come live with me... i'm wracking my brain to figure out what i need to know to be a caretaker.. i want to be there for her. I figure her getting a true diagnosis is the only way to be sure about all this. But I am also aware that it's HER LIFE. Not mine. She is not me. If it were me, i'd fight tooth and nail to live every last moment I could before my body gave out. But she is choosing a different way.. and i'm struggling to accept it because i love her so much. She lives alone, and has no friends. She has me, my sister and her brother.. and we all live over 2 hours away. How can we just accept her wishes and just "leave it alone?" She's all alone.
So i guess my real question is.. how can i be there for her and be strong enough to accept what ever decisions she makes in how to deal with this?
sorry that was so long winded..
-m