LisaK
New member
- Joined
- May 1, 2008
- Messages
- 4
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 08/1998
- Country
- US
- State
- pa
- City
- Pittsburgh
My father has had ALS for over 12 years now and my mother is primary caregiver. He is doing as well as can be expected. They have people come in to help and we all do as much as we can to assist; however, I have noticed that my mother is very depressed and has made enough mentions of wanting to 'go away and never come back' that I am very concerned. She may have a bad day and is crying hysterically and making these types of 'threats', but then she calms down and says she just needed to vent. Then, the following days/weeks, she seems fine. I have dismissed it somewhat in the past as her needing to vent as she has said; however our 18 year old nephew committed suicide last week. The family is devastated and at a complete loss because no one saw it coming. This has now alerted me in a big way to the fact that my mother may be sending up the red flags that she is in over her head and can no longer manage. At the funeral for my nephew, my mother made specific mention to how she too has considered this in the past (she told this to my best friend, who immediately told me). I just don't know what to do. I want to address this with her, but I am not sure what the reaction will be. It is also very frustrating that she has refused any kind of help. Clearly she is suffering from depression; however she refuses to take any type of antidepressant. I have also tried to get her to join a support group or at least talk to another caregiver who is dealing with the same things as her.
I try to be there pretty much every day to break up any tension and relieve her from some duties. When I ask what else I can do, she just says no on can help. I know she feels very alone and I am at a loss. She now has daily help. Someone comes in the morning to get my father out of bed, bathed, bathroom, and feeds him breakfast and lunch. I try to come every day to feed him dinner. But this illness is just so horrendous. He needs someone to do everything. He can still swallow and breaths fine with no machines; however he can no longer lift his arms or move his legs so he is completely wheelchair bound and his speech is pretty much gone as well. He communicates well; however he needs someone to do everything for him. I understand what she is going through at least as much as an outsider can understand. (That really infuriates her when people make that comment) and I know it is so difficult living with this disease and caring for someone, but I don't know what to do. My father has always said he just wants to remain in his house so putting him in a home is out of the question. If anyone has any experience with this or input, it would be so greatly appreciated. Lisa
I try to be there pretty much every day to break up any tension and relieve her from some duties. When I ask what else I can do, she just says no on can help. I know she feels very alone and I am at a loss. She now has daily help. Someone comes in the morning to get my father out of bed, bathed, bathroom, and feeds him breakfast and lunch. I try to come every day to feed him dinner. But this illness is just so horrendous. He needs someone to do everything. He can still swallow and breaths fine with no machines; however he can no longer lift his arms or move his legs so he is completely wheelchair bound and his speech is pretty much gone as well. He communicates well; however he needs someone to do everything for him. I understand what she is going through at least as much as an outsider can understand. (That really infuriates her when people make that comment) and I know it is so difficult living with this disease and caring for someone, but I don't know what to do. My father has always said he just wants to remain in his house so putting him in a home is out of the question. If anyone has any experience with this or input, it would be so greatly appreciated. Lisa