This first journal entry I wrote to all my family and friends who were waiting to hear my diagnosis that day:

“I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end….
You will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it,
I will trust You always though I may seem to be lost
And in the shadow of death,
I will not fear, for You are ever with me,
And You will never leave...

Lost in the darkness of the beast
He sneaks upon you silently but you know he is there
You are uneasy wondering what is wrong
You seek advice from professionals
They really don’t know, they say
Try this…and it must be this….now that
Confusion sets in. the mind becomes clouded
Things grow darker, thoughts race wildly
But inside you know ……
You can feel the beast taking over
You want to deny it, but...

Oct.29, 2011
Letter to God

Beloved, I want to say something to every living being whom you gave breath to…Why do we take so for granted the many gifts you have given to us? Why is it that we only really see them as gifts when they are about to be taken away from us?

I once took for granted that I could walk anywhere I desired. I never gave it a thought. I once took for granted that I could speak whatever was in my thoughts and heart to anyone I wanted. I never...

On September 10, 2001 I was depressed. I was thirty-four years old and a single mother to an adorable eight year old, Alina.

That night, after work, I did what I had done daily since February 21, 2001. I read to my daughter Alina, tucked her into bed, and then retreated to my front porch.

Before February 21, 2001, my front porch was hardly noticed. I was simply passing through that space to get somewhere else. The porch was a place to put the groceries before carrying...

Recently I was asked, "I just find myself saying, "Well what about this religion? What about that religion?" and believing in happenstance or luck doesn't really do it for me either.
So if you wouldn't mind, could you share with me your own experience a little more? I think it might help me understand what I'm lacking."

This question was asked of me by one of the Forum members.

It might take me a few tries to convey why I believe and what...