Posted 03-18-2012 at 11:09 PM by Barbie
I hate it when I start feeling this way. I miss my old life and my old husband so much. I really hate the life I have now. I want this all to be over, but what I really want things the way they use to be. yes, I know it will not go back the way it was, yes, I know when this is over my husband will be dead and that is what is making me so crazy and sad. What is there to wish for--I don't want to be where I am at and I don't want to be where I am going...I can't help the way I feel so today I am wallowing in self pity.
It has been such a long time on this ALS train for us. You know, I am so proud of my husband--he is the one who is sick and he deals with it so well. He is really well adjusted and lives the best life he can everyday. he doesn't whine or complain or cry. I on the other hand am a big baby. I whine, complain and cry enough for both of us. I feel over whelmed, drowning in problems that have no solution. I feel like I am paddling against a very strong stream, and if I don't keep it up I am going to go over the waterfall...no matter how hard I paddle, I keep slipping closer to the falls and I am tired!
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Posted 03-19-2012 at 03:41 PM by Kevalyn
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