I heard him play again!

[freddiesnetty]

Well, I am so saddened to say that my dearest friend has left the building. He wanted me to put it that way. Freddie passed away on April 2, 2009 at around 7 am. I went to wake him and he just never woke up. I will tell you more later, I will miss him so, I do know that it was so windy yesterday.........It must have been all the applause when he arrived, I know that he had a lot of tunes stored up in him for the "BIG" show.................

Rock On My Freddie!!!!!

I will miss you so............
Thanks for all of your support, I know I have came and went. Sometimes it just go so hard....My love to you all
netty

[joelc]

I am extremely sorry to hear that! God Bless you both as you fought an incredible fight and now he is at peace! I pray for your comfort during this time!

[andyvaughn]

I am so very sorry for your loss, your courage, love and dedication have been a source of inspiration to me, and I am certain many others. Thank you for taking such good care of Freddie
Andrea

[brendapals]

netty,
My blessings to you my dear, and yes, we all know freddie is in a much better place now. I'm sure he's playing lots of good tunes too! You are a truly fine woman, and I just know that God will reward you greatly one day. To have lived thru what you have with grit and determination is just awe inspiring.

I will continue to keep you in my prayers, I hope you have a restful weekend.
-brenda

[rose]

Netty,

I'm so sorry, please don't feel alone, you know he's always going to be with you. Your love and determination to do what was best for him was an inspiration for all of us.

[rick/Wpg]

Netty
Freddie may have left the building but will never leave your heart or all of ours! You two have been an inspiring couple and your love for one another shone through all the problems you faced together.
Our hearts and prayers are with you!
Blessings!
Rick & Joan

[hopingforcure]

Oh I am sorry, My sister called me one day and was so excited to see the lovely article on Freddy some time ago. I will never forget how much she was inspired by him, she was so surprised that I new his story, and was so aware of what a kind person you are. I am so sorry Freddy is gone, but he lives through you, and his song. Please join us when you are ready, we need you around here..

[hopingforthebest]

Dear Netty

So very sad that Freddie has left you but knowing he is rocking with his guitar again is a sight we will all remember when we think of him.

Praying for you to remember all the great times you had together over the years!

Patty

[brooksea]

Oh, Netty, I'm so sorry!

You and he did the best you could possibly do and now he is on to another "concert."

I hope you find strength in knowing he is in a better place and able to play his music.

[thelma313]

Netty, I am so very very sorry for your loss! I am really saddened by this news but I think the really great thing about Freddie is that he has left us all the gift of his music, so a part of him will always be here. He lives on through his art and through your love for him. Your bond with each other is a true inspiration and a fairy tale love story.

I hope you find strength and are surrounded by loved ones to help you through this difficult time.

[lydia]

Netty, I am so sorry to hear about Freddie. I have followed your story for quite a while and always thought of you two as an amazing couple. I am just so sorry to hear this,

Lydia

[crystalkk]

Netty,

I am so sorry, Freddy is in a better place and playing his music.

[kelly]

Netty....I am speechless....I am going to put his cd's on right now. You two will forever be in my heart. I am so sorry....you both have been such an inspiration to our family. I will be thinking of you both. All our love, Kelly and Andrew

[trying to stay positive]

Netty, I am so sorry to hear of Freddie's passing. Your love for Freddy was (and still is) an inspiration for all of us CALS.
Take care of yourself. I will keep you in my prayers.

[Marjorie R. Wilcox]

So sorry to hear about Freddie. May your fond memories comfort you. Your relationship has inspired us all.

[BethU]

You have been so strong and such a fighter for Freddie, you have inspired everyone who has read your messages. I wish we could all be there to comfort you. Freddie's loss is a tragedy, but he is surely at peace.

[Al]

So sorry Netty. I was just wondering yesterday how the two of you were doing.

AL.

[laurel]

Dear Netty,
I am so sorry that you have lost Freddy. May he be at peace and God Bless you both.
Laurel

[Maureen]

I am sorry to hear of your loss. Freddie was so lucky to have you in his life. I know he is now at peace. God bless

[sharonca]

Oh Netty, I am so sorry to hear the news. You both have been such an inspiration. Please come back when you feel ready. Hugs to you.

Sharonca

[Zaphoon]

Netty,

I am so sorry for your great loss. Please accept my heart-felt condolences. You were a terrific source of comfort and a wonderful ministering spirit to Freddie. Bless you for all you were to him!

Zaphoon

[MtPockets]

Netty, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I pray for peace and comfort for you and your family.
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[vmd]

My condolences and prayers.

[DgtofTNfan]

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family.

[sharona]

Nettie I am so sorry. I have not looked at the memorials for awhile.Tonight I opened yours & all I could say was oh my god. First Del & now Freddie. I am so sorry for the loss of Freddie,you have been a wonderful wife & caregiver to him.I pray that you will have peace & comfort during this time.Please come back when you feel you can. I hope my son that is in heaven with Freddie will get to hear him play his wonderful guitar .God Bless.
Sharon

[Al]

Irma answer your email confirmation
AL.

[Al]

Sorry Netty but Irma is having log in problems.

AL.

[SteveS]

I am saddened to hear the news. I have done a ton of research on Freddie since hearing his (and your) stories here. I am a musician as well and a talent such as his will be sadly missed. As they say...if there is a Rock and Roll heaven, they must have one hell of a band. All though the final curtain for him has fallen here on earth, the show has only begun where he is now. May he rest in peace and his songs be heard in the wind always.

Steve

[Flowerpot]

Netty

My thoughts are with you at this sad time - my son loves Freddie's work - I am sure he is rocking all over the world now.

Kind regards

Flowerpot

[patricia1]

NETTY I AM SO SORRY. YOU WERE VERY CARING. HE WILL BE MISSED
PAT 1:cry:

[olly]

dear netty,i am so very sorry to hear of freddies passing.
we all know how devoted you were to freddie and how much you both went through.
you both have touched so many people with your courage and love for one another.
freddie definatly lives on in you and everyone who had the privilage to know him.
you are in my thoughts and prayers. godbless.

[strikeout]

Netty,
I was so saddend to hear of Freddie's passing. I have read so many of your posts, I feel as if I know the two of you. You both were lucky to have each other.
"If you listen with your heart you will always hear his song"

[paula-jane]

Netty,

I'm so sorry to hear of Freddie's passing. My heart goes out to you, may your memories comfort you always. You and Freddie were such a great team.

xo paula

[sdsyd]

Netty-

I am sad to hear of your loss. Freddie has had an impact on so many people and been a true inspiration -and your genuine love and compassion shines right through. I am praying for you and your loved ones this very minute.

Love,
Cindy

[Tfisher]

Netty,

Sorry for your loss.

[Lorie]

Thanks Capt. Al for letting me know on Saturday of Freddie's passing. Tim came home from the Hospital on Saturday and that evening I told him about Freddie. He and I cried. He cried from the depth of his Heart. We have so much sorrow for you both. I told Tim Freddie was an Angel singing in Heaven now. Netty, I don't if you got my text message. Please E-Mail me your address.

Love Always,
Lorie and Tim (PALS)

[nspoc]

Netty -

I cannot tell you how sorry I am! You have pages of responses - that tells you how much you mean to so many people.

As for me - I am the caregiver, just like you. You have inspired and touched me more than you know. You are in the pantheon of my heroes.

I wish you all the peace and love you deserve. Please keep in touch as you continue to travel this journey, with Freddie in a different place. I will think of you often and send my best thoughts your way.

Beth

[KeeKer]

So sorry for your loss.

[BarryG]

Nettie,

Even though we haven't spoken here before I know that all of us here are friends and I would like to say how sorry I am to hear of Freddie's passing.

Keep on Rockin Freddie! His music and spirit lives on in all of us.

[lovelily]

Hi Netty ~ I'm so sorry for your loss! May Freddie rest in peace.

[Jeannie]

Dear Netty,
I can't tell you how sorry I am. I haven't been on in a while so please accept my appoligies for the delay.
You are such a strong woman and an inspiration. Freddy will always be with you.
Again, I am so sorry, He is at peace.
In friendship
Jeannie

[CindyM]

I am sorry to hear this, Netty. Freddy was lucky to have you in his life and I am sure you will miss him!

[katekath]

Oh Netty, I am so sorry to hear about Freddie. Hugs to you. Take care of yourself.

[mndireland]

Netty, Im so sorry for the loss of your best friend, as you have put it. I havent been on for a while, soo sorry for the delay. I hope you have been ok in the last few weeks, and I hope you have had some comfort in friends and family.

You have been an inspiriation as a cals, in the way you loved and looked after Freddie. I know your advice has been appreciated by all cals out there.

Take Care of yourself now

[freddiesnetty]

Thanks so much for all the replies, it has been very hard to deal with I never dreamed that Freddie would die, but then again it took me for ever to deal with him having the damn disease to begin with, hell that was from the very beginning. We always felt that we were going to another planet when we went to the ALS clinic. Freddie hated that place, he said that at home just him and I alone always made him feel safe and not afraid of the disease. I think the Drs. reminded him that he was going to eventually fall victim of the damn disease. At home all he would talk about was waiting on the cure, his last visit to the hospital two weeks before he passed he would reply to the doctors when they would ask him if he needed anything, just to bring him a can of stem cells. He never gave up hope. He smiled and had a great time the night before he died, He was up till around midnight. My girlfriend and an avid fan of Freddie's was here joking with him and he had her laughing talking to her on ERICA. He was fine. At around 4 am, he popped off the vent, I jumped up and reconnected him instantlly. I then woke up around 6 and thought he never asked to go to the bathroom, I started looking and calling his name and no response. I put his heart and oxygen monitor on his finger, It instantly showed a red 81 and I thought oh shit.......I hovered over him calling him and shaking him, no response. I thought for a brief moment that I should grab a bottle of oxygen and start bagging him, but I didn't.. I felt like he just wanted me to walk away, I think that I had called my sister, which would of never been the person I would of called...she never "got it" . Any way, I was begging her to please not call 911 that he was going to wake up, well a few minutes later here they were, I remember one of the paramedics saying "oh sh*t it is Freddie" I gave them the DNR, I didn't want them crushing his sternum, he was so thin. While they were reading it the one guy was crying and asked the other to "pronounce" him...........I wanted to die, by this time the house was full of my neighbors and friends..........It happened so quick....
I was beating myself up that I didn't get up in time for weeks......I couldn't believe that I slept through a beep...........Well time went by and then I started thinking and I mean hard thinking...I remembered that when they first pit in the pic line 3 months prior that the had him on a blood thinner. They had found a bllod clot in his arm. Well he had been scoped three times in about a 6 week period. He had .been in the hospital twice. He was only home 2 weeks before he passed. About a month prior to Freddie's death they told him to discontinue the blood thinner, they never took any blood tests to check the levels. I am sure that he passed away from a blood clot, I hope, I think that the pressure of the clot maybe caused him to pop off the vent, not me sleeping through it, also I think that if that was it, it was quick.......He was not in distress, he looked peaceful.
Well then it was another few weeks of beating myself up that I didn't check the blood levels, anyone that knows me knows I never missed a beat with him.........NEVER!!
I have now had more time to analyze, because that is what I do.....lol.........bad habit.
I am so relieved that Freddie is free of that horrible body and his spirit is free!!!
I miss him so......I have never loved like that before that was my soul mate....
I will make sure that I have my ticket to the big show!!
The last thing Freddie typed was I Love you Annette.

Freddie's funeral was standing room only, people were in the halls, outside and in the parking lot, the funeral home said that there was around 2000 people there they had never say anything like that. It was a celebration!! His old guitar player played the National Anthem and everyone stood at the end and cheered Freddie's name!! I was amazed at all of the love in the room for my Freddie. He looked so good, free of the tubes and mostly at peace. His body was covered in guitar picks from fellow musicians, the members of ZZ Top were there, it was like a huge jam session.

I have tried my best to move on and stay busy, it is not as easy as it sounds, my body is trashed, my mind is so overwhelmed. I have really put my body through some stuff.
I have decided to go to school, I will start in the fall. I am going to be a Respitory Therapist. Yes of all things, I want to do that. I want to give back...
Well I have carpal tunnel........lol.........I will be back, I feel better now, I want to help all that I can......Thanks for all the love and support!!!
netty

[joelc]

I am so proud of you! God Bless and I know whatever you do you will do with incredible love and devotion!

[MtPockets]

The tears are running as I read your message so filled with love.
Freddie was so blessed to have you. Thank you for opening your heart.

[brooksea]

Thank you for sharing Netty...wish you the best. You deserve it!

[hopingforcure]

Netty,
Thank you so much for sharing, it took so much for you to give us so much. Your love was a constant, and was so evident in your posts, you talked of Freddie with word's of love. i am so sorry he is gone, but it sure sounds like you two had a love of a lifetime. I love love the group ZZ-top, my husband was just kidding me the other day, saying he dated a young girl once who loved ZZ-top, (that girl was me), he was teasing... Freddie sounds like he touched so many lives, and it sure sounds like you gave him the voice to touch many more, it surely seems as he lives on with you. Thank you for being so honest and true, to Freddie and every other pals and cals, it will help so many cals and pals feel stronger. Oh and I get how Freddie felt, I feel safe at home also.