Hal and Beth, those were two very insightful posts on EL. Thank you!
I'm just going mad. No EL, just mad and I think it has to do with the constant crappy feely from continual cramps and spasticity. I get annoyed by people doing stupid things where as before, I'd hardly notice stupid people. In fact, stupid people were my friends! Now I even call them names (names I wouldn't have called them before). I also mutter things under my breath.
We had company over recently - my wife had to have these folks from church over for lunch on
Thursday. This couple came over with their kids and there wasn't enough room for everyone at the table. I wanted to get the card table out but couldn't find it and uttered that four letter "S" word under my breath. The dear, saintly church mother must have heard me because she had this look of shock on her face.
What do you do? Are you suppose to confirm your suspicions that you've been heard muttering a slight nasty. "Excuse me, sainted person, but did you just hear me utter what I think you heard me utter?"
With me, my subconscious is overwhelmed by what my conscious mind is supressing, that being the constant, nagging muscle cramps and stiffness. Suddenly, things flood into my conscious from my subconscious and I say things I ought not, mainly to myself.
In my case, I don't think I have true EL, just a worn and frazzled mind from trying to ignore all of the "discomfort".
Zaphoon