Oh my, I've started crying all over again. Your words are beautiful, Deb. Like you, I don't know how I would have survived without this family guiding, teaching, listening, and loving.
I know that you are in great pain. I also know that Steve is right, YOU CAN DO IT. It'll hurt, but that's the price of loving and being loved.
We love you, lady. You have done a fabulous job of caring for Steve. I do remember when you first arrived here, that scared wife from Texas, and while your battle scars don't show to the general public, we know what they are. You've earned your crown. WE should have named you sooner.
Big hugs. Much love. Wishes for Steve for a peaceful transition, and for you to find peace as you move to the other side. When I join you there, you can be my guide.
Becky