Manhattanite
Distinguished member
- Joined
- May 10, 2015
- Messages
- 209
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 05/2015
- Country
- US
- State
- NY
- City
- New York
Grief is such a strange process. You read about it, you hear other people talk about it, but it is not until you experience it that you realize how complex and unique it is.
It's close to the 6th month anniversary of my PALS' death. My grief has changed. Someone once told me about the numbness that eventually develops and I am at that stage now.
It is as if I have placed the past in a picture frame protected by a thick layer of glass that blocks emotion. I am constantly flooded by memories and I still think of my PALS every minute of the day, but memories don't hurt as much as they used to. I'm not sure if this is a male thing ("women grieve, men remarry") but it is a relief to not suffer as much anymore.
I have stopped trying to find an explanation for something that cannot be explained. Perhaps I have accepted the fact that I will never understand what happened.
To those of you who still feel the raw emotions of loss, rest assured things get better. It is unpredictable when this happens, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I think some sharp emotions will always pierce through the glass, but it becomes less frequent.
We only get one life to live...
It's close to the 6th month anniversary of my PALS' death. My grief has changed. Someone once told me about the numbness that eventually develops and I am at that stage now.
It is as if I have placed the past in a picture frame protected by a thick layer of glass that blocks emotion. I am constantly flooded by memories and I still think of my PALS every minute of the day, but memories don't hurt as much as they used to. I'm not sure if this is a male thing ("women grieve, men remarry") but it is a relief to not suffer as much anymore.
I have stopped trying to find an explanation for something that cannot be explained. Perhaps I have accepted the fact that I will never understand what happened.
To those of you who still feel the raw emotions of loss, rest assured things get better. It is unpredictable when this happens, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I think some sharp emotions will always pierce through the glass, but it becomes less frequent.
We only get one life to live...