soonerwife
Very helpful member
- Joined
- Mar 16, 2016
- Messages
- 1,571
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 10/2015
- Country
- US
- State
- OK
- City
- Cleveland
Buckhorn, I think that is partly what makes it so hard. Cliff has ALWAYS been such a thoughtful person. So for him to be so different, it's hard to not be hurt by it.
I told him that I was hurt by him wanting to see the sunrise with her. I told him that I wish he wanted to spend time with me... I don't think it is good to just bottle those feelings up and choke them down. I believe this causes resentment that I definitely don't want to have.
He played some music for me. A very sweet song about how easy it is to love me. We watched the first half of the OU game together.
I have been hoping that now that I have more time, I would be able to make some memories with him. Music is his #1 thing that he loves so hopefully we will be able to connect through music.
I hadn't thought about why he is connecting with others. Nikki may be right, I can't imagine what it is like for him to have this disease.
It still hurts that I can't be that person for him I want him to have friends but I also want to continue being his person. I have been doing that for 22 years and I am not ready to give that up.
I am so thankful for this forum. It gives me a place that I can be open and honest and get other perspectives from others that are on the other side of this monster. I would be completely lost without all of you!
I told him that I was hurt by him wanting to see the sunrise with her. I told him that I wish he wanted to spend time with me... I don't think it is good to just bottle those feelings up and choke them down. I believe this causes resentment that I definitely don't want to have.
He played some music for me. A very sweet song about how easy it is to love me. We watched the first half of the OU game together.
I have been hoping that now that I have more time, I would be able to make some memories with him. Music is his #1 thing that he loves so hopefully we will be able to connect through music.
I hadn't thought about why he is connecting with others. Nikki may be right, I can't imagine what it is like for him to have this disease.
It still hurts that I can't be that person for him I want him to have friends but I also want to continue being his person. I have been doing that for 22 years and I am not ready to give that up.
I am so thankful for this forum. It gives me a place that I can be open and honest and get other perspectives from others that are on the other side of this monster. I would be completely lost without all of you!