Thestratman56...We are probably a lot alike, and I assume there are others on here that feel the same way when it comes to "giving in" to the next step even if it helps us. Regarding the mental game and the depression (disclaimer: if it gets too bad see a therapist), but you are going to be up and down for years and it's okay. Be depressed and stubborn one day when you feel like you have been cheated, and then wake up to a new day and basically say "it is what it is and there is no way I can change it at this point". The reality is that none of us wanted or asked for this, and we all pictured our lives being in a different position and would rather not even know the things we know about this. I know that I would love to go back to before this all started and I was working as an appraiser in an auto body shop and working around the house and drinking beer in the garage on weekends (I loved it). Now all that is gone, I did spend a lot of time reading about the studies and research early on but that became depressing over the years of "great finds" only to never hear about them again or they were not what they thought. You will end up bouncing from watching tv, to the computer, to reading, and then maybe even trying to do something you used to be able to do...or like me, stare at the walls sometimes. There is no way around the fact that it is depressing and I would question anybody that gets up and says, "that they find it a blessing".
*** Above all of that....I would be excited if I were you at your timeframe so far. Basically you are three and half years into it from symptom onset and nobody has told you that you have a dirty EMG and I'm assuming that they didn't say you had questionable Forced Vital Capacity at your clinic visit. So I would be looking on the bright side, that you can account for 3 1/2 years and are still walking on a treadmill and limiting your use of aids safely...to me that's good news given how fast true ALS can move on a person. ***