Staying strong
Active member
- Joined
- Nov 20, 2014
- Messages
- 78
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 5/2011
- Country
- US
- State
- ct
- City
- danbury
With the 1 year anniversary past without to much sadness and My Son getting called back to his job and My Daughter getting into every college she applied to with many scholarship offers I feel like I was in a decent place. My new G/F is wonderful understanding and loving to the 3 of us.. My daughter and I went to Freshman orientation 2 days ago and she was given an award for having the most college credits as a incoming freshman in 10 years ( from so many A/P classes at her private high school ). When they broke us up in groups of parents and students I lasted about a 1/2 hour before I had to walk out and go sit in the car ( she doesn't know ). Here I am with My whole family headed in the right direction and I can't find it in myself to enjoy even a minute of it.. this surely will damage my new relationship but even worse all the work I've done to keep the kids headed forward.. Doesn't feel like it's fair that Liz isn't here to see the results of all her hard work as a Mom.. I feel so guilty that I'm the one getting the credit for the kids success and strength.. They got all that from Her.. Every time I close my eyes I can see feel and Hear her take her last breath as I held her in my Arms...
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