smoochiegal
Active member
- Joined
- Jan 3, 2015
- Messages
- 87
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 08/2014
- Country
- CA
- State
- Ontario
- City
- Otonabee
Good morning all,
Yesterday was a weepy day.
I just kept thinking about how much this disease has taken already and it seems that we have only just begun.
I miss going out to dinner with my husband.
I miss holding his hand while sitting together watching TV.
I miss him.
He is still able to walk, but struggles with shortness of breath (we are looking into the bipap now) but he will not leave the house. I ask him to even just go for a drive with me and says no. He says that it takes too much energy. He has not left the house in a month.
I feel like since he is still able to get around, NOW is the time to do things that we want to.. I feel like I should be making memories with him now... maybe my expectations are too high.
Maybe that time is gone too.
He spends his days in his lazy boy with his tablet, tv and beer.
I feel like I have already lost my husband... but he is still there. He just does not want (or is not able to) do anything.
I know that he is depressed, but he will not even talk about taking meds. He does not want to talk about anything.
I am discouraged.
Cheryl
Yesterday was a weepy day.
I just kept thinking about how much this disease has taken already and it seems that we have only just begun.
I miss going out to dinner with my husband.
I miss holding his hand while sitting together watching TV.
I miss him.
He is still able to walk, but struggles with shortness of breath (we are looking into the bipap now) but he will not leave the house. I ask him to even just go for a drive with me and says no. He says that it takes too much energy. He has not left the house in a month.
I feel like since he is still able to get around, NOW is the time to do things that we want to.. I feel like I should be making memories with him now... maybe my expectations are too high.
Maybe that time is gone too.
He spends his days in his lazy boy with his tablet, tv and beer.
I feel like I have already lost my husband... but he is still there. He just does not want (or is not able to) do anything.
I know that he is depressed, but he will not even talk about taking meds. He does not want to talk about anything.
I am discouraged.
Cheryl