Pandora
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Apr 30, 2011
- Messages
- 130
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 01/2011
- Country
- US
- State
- Texas
- City
- Crowley
Well it has been a little over 6 months since Bran passed away. I am struggling with so many things, when is the time to "move on" (not date or get married or anything like that) but when is it the time to live again and not feel the guilt or pain. When is it time to spread the ashes, should I push myself to do this, he left me no instructions for this, my heart says to hold them forever and when I go , mix us together and take us to my family plot.
When do I stop crying? When is the time to stop sleeping in his old shirts? I don't want to move on ... ever, but is it healthy to feel this way? He made me promise to have a life after he was gone, but he was my life I am afraid that I will not be able to keep this promise. I am still clinging to everything our life was. I know there is not a set timeline for anything like this. I just am in a holding pattern and circling. I am still in love with him, and I always will be, I have no doubt but a promise is a promise. I don't ever want to move on, but I do want to be mentally healthy. When is the right time to work on this? I have gone back to school, so thats a step in the right direction. That was something he made me promise too. I just want to honor him in all the right ways, keeping my promises and yet staying true to my heart.
When do I stop crying? When is the time to stop sleeping in his old shirts? I don't want to move on ... ever, but is it healthy to feel this way? He made me promise to have a life after he was gone, but he was my life I am afraid that I will not be able to keep this promise. I am still clinging to everything our life was. I know there is not a set timeline for anything like this. I just am in a holding pattern and circling. I am still in love with him, and I always will be, I have no doubt but a promise is a promise. I don't ever want to move on, but I do want to be mentally healthy. When is the right time to work on this? I have gone back to school, so thats a step in the right direction. That was something he made me promise too. I just want to honor him in all the right ways, keeping my promises and yet staying true to my heart.