January 30, 2008

My report cards are finished! My lesson plans for the this week and next are finished. Now I can finish the school day and leave tonight knowing that I have everything ready for being out the next six school days. My boys have their tonsillectomies tomorrow. I had mine out when I was seven and it was a three-day hospital stay, but theirs will be out patient at a surgery center. But their surgery won't be until 11:45 and 12:30 respectively and the can't have anything to eat and drink for eight hours before. That might be tough for them, it's hard enough for us adults to go that long without a drink of water. I will be going to Houston Sunday to be there first thing Monday morning for my 2 1/2 days of tests. My daughter has begun to come to these forums to get info and ask questions. She is 15 and feels like I will be her responsibility eventually if the diagnosis is ALS or something similar. But that is not the case. She also wonders why I am so calm about all this. First, I don't have a true diagnosis of anything yet, so I'm trying to put the negative thoughts about what my neurologist thinks it is as far back in my mind as possible right now. I've had a lot to keep me busy lately. Second, in my heart, in my gut, I feel that everything is going to be all right. Whether that means that I don't have ALS and what I have is treatable or curable, I don't know. It could just mean that no matter how gloomy the diagnosis might eventually be, everything STILL will be all right. All things are working together for good, there is a plan, there is a purpose for this. What? I have no idea right now. But I do know the One who knows.